12:30am I get in bed late. Just one of those evenings....
1:00am I'm trying to settle into sleep with the baby doing somersaults in my tummy and Benj starts whining. I investigate and find out he's mostly still asleep and having a bad dream. I wake him up enough to interrupt the dream and assure him it's ok. He is nodding back to sleep as I leave. I think all is well.
2:15am Seth comes to bed. I haven't fallen asleep yet as Benj has continued to whimper, whine and cry out.
3:00am Benj comes out & has to go potty. (Bless Seth for taking him.) After this I am finally able to fall asleep until...
4:45am Benj comes out & wants a tissue. I sigh, go get him one, tuck him back into bed, return to my own bed and fall asleep again until...
5:45am Benj starts crying loudly. I go in, hug him, and tell him to lay down. The minute he does he starts coughing and in my thoroughly groggy state I think he's going to get sick. My reaction startles him and he starts crying again. I take him out into our room, but not before he wakes up Talia. Seth and I question him, "does something hurt?" "Yes" (but he can't tell us what.) Finally he says he is crying because he wants a hug and his knee hurts. {grit teeth} We send him back to bed with promises of discipline should he wake us up again.
6:00am Talia is singing in her bed. I go in to tell her to go back to sleep. Benj is sleeping.
6:15am Talia is talking and banging in her bed. I go in to tell her to lay down, be quiet, and go back to sleep. Benj is still sleeping.
6:50am Talia is screeching and laughing in her bed. She is disciplined and cries long and loud in protest. Benj remains asleep.
7:15am Talia is crying because she has taken off her jammies and can't get them back on. I decide, "Never mind, who needs sleep anyway?" and take her back to the living room where she boisterously zooms her pink LittlePeople minivan up and down the coffee table while I curl up on a chair holding my pounding head.
Ah, the joys of motherhood.... Being up all night is not one of them. :)
We received some bad news this last Friday from Seth's advisor. He will not be graduating this May. Seth had turned in some work earlier last week and received an email Friday saying there were some major revisions that need to be done and that there is no way he can meet the deadline in two weeks. He did say that Seth could probably get the revisions done this semester and graduate in December, but at this point there's too much work left to do for a May graduation.
Needless to say it was discouraging and disappointing news. The last thing Seth had heard was that there would just be some minor revisions to do eventually, but there were no major problems. Things really seemed to be lining up for him to graduate in May, so it really took us by surprise to hear, all of a sudden, that there were concerns. Despite this setback we remain confident that God has a plan for us. We know this abrupt turn of events didn't take Him by surprise.
Please pray for us this week. We're settling in for the long haul once again. We were blessed with a free babysitter for Saturday afternoon and were able to reconnect and regroup. Seth will be adjusting his schedule so he can be home a little more with the kids and me. At the same time, there is still not much room for him to ease up if he's going to be able to address these new challenges. He is still going to have to put in late nights on a regular basis and persevere through this. Meanwhile, we both feel the wind has been sucked out of our sails. It's hard to keep pushing despite the fact that the light at the end of the tunnel has suddenly become a pin-prick again.
The next deadline Seth will be trying to meet is the end of April. If he can get a defense draft turned in by that date, we will avoid having to pay tuition for the Fall semester.
Meanwhile, we still have a baby coming May 19th, ready or not. We have to find and purchase a (reliable yet affordable) minivan before that date and take care of all the various logistics that come with preparing for a new baby again. You know, in all our spare time. :) Although, we have made the decision to put off moving to a bigger house until summer or early fall. After all, Talia slept in the living room...the kitchen...even occasionally the bathroom for several months when she was tiny and she's fine. :)








